Lemonade out of lemons

A little less sad / hopeless today. I have a Plan for what to do about the cleaning. I am setting boundaries at work by refusing to work evenings. This may be difficult for my boss to handle but he's just going to have to deal with it. The balance in my life is way, way off.

Also am working on feeling less alone. I feel alone throughout most of my day, especially when I'm travelling but at home too. I'm not alone; I have a very kind, adoring husband, a supportive family and family-in-law, and great friends. But I go through many of my days feeling quite alone in this world. Not just alone; misunderstood. I don't feel that I communicate my feelings very well, and I don't think that others (whether they try or not) understand what I am feeling or thinking very well.

Anyway. I am working through these things and trying not to believe them. I am making a plan for China that involves exercise, sunshine and time to relax. Lemonade out of Lemons. I will be there for 4 weeks or possibly more, so I want to make sure it is not a negative experience.

Tonight my husband and I are going on a date. We don't have time to do this often, so it's really special to me when we can find the time and make the effort. We are going to my favorite Japanese vegan restaurant. The food is delicious and quite affordable so everybody wins.

I need a massage. The services at the hotel are expensive and not the best. The other option in China is a foot massage, which I've described before, but I'm not a fan of them.

What I really want is a chiropractic back cracking. My back feels so stiff and in need of a good cracking, but it is really hard to do on your own. There are some yoga stretches I can do but they just don't feel enough. Maybe I just need a really long yoga stretch session and some time in the sauna. That I can definitely do at the hotel.

I am off to buy Jelly Belly Jellybeans for my cousins' kids now. They live in Hong Kong and have never experienced Jelly Bellys, which are quite possibly the best jelly beans I've ever had. They are local to San Francisco. I hate jelly beans, but I like Jelly Bellys. So there you go.